July 4th Holiday

Well...people just try to make things what they should be sometimes.  Often, I just smile my way through things, tough times.  It's really sitting at fireworks and bonfires with friends knowing they should all be oooing and ahhing over my Claire.

Right now Claire would be doing one of five things.....

Eating
Pooping
Peeing
Crying
Sleeping

Not much but she would be here and that is all that matters.  Darrell is five and starts kindergarten in two weeks.  Wholeheartedly, I miss having a little one.  I still have all this want to mother inside me.  And I realize that even though I may have another baby, it doesn't make up for losing Claire.  That I totally agree with.

I am going to post some pictures of our July 4th holiday.

                                          Kids at the pool.

                                            Darrell swimming.

                                          Face painting at Indiana Grand before fireworks show.

                                         Katie

                                         Bub

                                          Glow glasses.  You can't see me but my glasses are hearts.

Yes, the fireworks were the most amazing I have ever seen.  I couldn't have been happier with the turnout.  Seeing other little baby girls did bother me.  Life is just so unfair.