Dani and Lizzy - Dancing in the Sky (with Lyrics) For my daugher

Having a really rough day without you today.  Some days are so much worse that others.

This song is beautiful.

Just like you.


Love,

Mom

Capture your grief - Day 3: Before

Day # 3 - Before

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Before we lost Claire, life had a calmness, a vibrance, a feeling of bliss. We worked, we schooled, we played. We laughed, we dreamed, and possibilities were endless. Hopes turned into reality and life just felt so good. In the picture of Brandon and I, I was pregnant with Claire. I had a glow, a happiness, and was so excited to be having a baby with Brandon. We are pictured somewhere where the sun was shining on us. Those smiles were real and they were genuine, they were not forced. The belly picture was 1 week before we lost her. I was popping out already at 20 weeks! Brandon took this picture and I remember him saying that I was really starting to show. We had only known that we were having a girl for just a few days here. I was so excited to have my first girl growing inside me. I felt her kick me for the first time around 17 weeks. By the time this picture was taken she was a little acrobat inside me. And when I would talk, sing, or play music she would join in.

Capture your grief - Day 2: Heart

Day # 2 - Heart

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I am not much into conformity, so my heart with not be a drawing. I have many talents on my resume, however, one is not artistry. Yes, I have other children, a son, and two stepchildren. And yes, they are a part of my heart. But this is a special gem my husband and I found on a recent weekend when we were spending time together. Finding items with Claire's name on them is not an easy task. When I do find something, I am overjoyed. So today my heart is the blue sparkling heart with her name. This blue reminds me of the dream I had of her, prior to her birth. She was in our backyard and she was running from me. She was about 3 years old with mid-length blonde curly hair, and as I yelled out her name in the dream, she looked back at me with eyes as crystal clear blue as this heart. I will never forget that dream. I hold it dear to my heart.

Capture your Grief Project - Day 1: Sunrise

Day # 1 - Sunrise

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Although, I do not know the actual date I took this photo. I do remember it was in the morning, in the summer, prior to dropping off Darrell at preschool. Yes, I said preschool. So I know it was around 6:30 A.M. I took the photo and pointed out the sky to Darrell who was in the backseat. I said to him "Those are Claire skies". He said "You mean clear skies?" I said "no Claire skies. She is shining down from heaven." His response was "I think you are right." Ever since, when I see a beautiful sky, I call it Claire skies.